uncertain

"You cannot be abandoned. You can only be released."

— Derrick Brown, Church of the Broken Axe Handle.

woman on woman

can we talk about how intimate/special the act of drunk-peeing between two girls is?

like that shit can cement even the most fragile, budding friendships. you pee with a girl and, even though you only recently met her, you can already feel that she’s chill and trustworthy and wonderful. you know she’s going to be a friend for some time.

not to mention all of the best gossip/real feelings/confessions come out when you’re taking turns peeing (while the other either acts as lookout or fixes her makeup in the mirror)

like, i really want to talk more about woman-on-woman platonic bonding rituals, because that shit is complex & lovely

how to create a list of anxieties

will i be alone with many friends but not my favourites favourite
will i earn enough $ to chose where i live and what i do based on my desire
will my insecurities become transparent if i freely feel & share emotion
will i not know enough about the things that everyone's expected to know just the right amount about
geography

houseguests/demands

“Of course, as we’ve gotten older, our troubles have also aged. They’ve become less of a novelty, but less of an emergency too. When her demons arrive, she gives them a trim and a shave, and when they depart, we know it won’t be for long. They’ve become her only steady houseguests. Mine are like drinking buddies, demanding beer and cigarettes.”

— Aaron Cometbus, from Cometbus #55

wet

Sentiment without action is the ruin of the soul.

yep

“Everything I’ve ever let go of has claw marks on it.” (David Foster Wallace)

couched

"I think you should not ask yourself too many questions. It’s the centipede syndrome, you know? The centipede was asked which foot he puts after which, and he couldn’t walk anymore."

— Roman Polanski